Tuesday, February 19, 2008

I'm frumpy. Plain and simple. The Amy that once cared about her hair, her nails, and being tan is a distant memory. I miss feeling good about me, about how I look. I miss feeling somewhat healthy. I'm tired of looking in the mirror and fearing that at some point that image that I see is no longer going to fit in the mirror lol. So, my Weight Watchers journey begins again. Why can't I be one of those people who can eat anything and not see it stuck to the side of their hips the next day? I have been up and down the scales my whole life and being 36 years old, that's a long time. It should be as easy as eat less, move more but it's not. Since cutting off a limb to lose a quick 20 pounds isn't an option, I guess I need to start counting my points and also getting some exercise, at least a few times a week. Honestly, sometimes I wonder if I'm addicted to food. I don't sit and eat a whole package of cookies or a box of donuts at one sitting, but like an alcoholic likes a drink to unwind, I like to have a sweet snack after the kids are in bed. That snack is usually Ben & Jerry's and at 28 points a pint, it is probably one of the worst things I can eat. I have great intentions, really I do. I tell myself all day that I won't snack at night but I give into my cravings every time. It feels like I don't have an ounce of self control or willpower but I know that's not true. I kicked the habit before so I know I can do it again. Hopefully.

A quote my sister sent me......

"Losing weight is hard. Being overweight is hard. Choose your hard."

4 comments:

Kitty said...

We all have our battles and weight is such a hard one!I know u can do it! \

AnnD said...

I am right there with you. I always need chocolate. Always. Always. After every meal, I think I need chocolate. The craving is immediate and intense. The only way I've cut back is to just stop buying it. I now have chocolate soy milk to get my chocolate fix. And I go through A LOT of it. And every few weeks, we'll go for ice cream or make brownies.

Jerinda said...

I absolutely believe that many people are addicted to food. I know I am. Be strong, you can do this! Have your fridge stocked with healthy stuff instead of Ben & Jerry's and when those cravings arise, you won't be able to fail. Another thing, buy gum. A lot of it. I found this chocolate mint gum that is really yummy and curbs that chocolate craving.

Good luck! I'm in the same boat, so hit me up if you need inspiration!

secret agent mama said...

I have trouble, too. I like that quote, though!